What's With This?!

♪ ♫ "Ohhh ohoh, chain reaction
Spin me around, all around
Oh feels like a lifetime
(I’ve been waiting)
One domino goes down
Then they all hit the ground
(And not deliberating)
It all happens for a reason right?" ♪ ♫ ~ Ke$ha

Lately, I've been coming up with all these catchy poet things. They keep popping into my head. IDK why. I'm seriously beginning to wonder what's up with this. What's up with me?! I feel like I am changing... little by little... something is different. I can't quite put my finger on what it is. It almost scares me. No... fuck that. It DOES scare me. I don't get scared by much, but when it comes to me and change and I don't know what's going on... that's when I silently freak.

I have been dreaming a lot more than normal recently. I like it, not gonna lie. It's pretty cool. Sometimes, I just wish that I understood them better. I think there is someone I'm supposed to meet. I don't know if I've met the person yet or not, but when I figure it out... Something important is going to happen or begin to happen. I get the feeling that the world is rapidly changing. My intuitive development teacher has said some things about it too, which is only part of the reason that I feel this. It actually feels like something inside me is preparing, adapting, evolving even. I so badly want to have someone to share this feeling with. Someone who feels the same, that I can talk to or confide in, who understands the feeling that I speak of. I have a few people in my life right now that I am trying to figure out. What role do they play in my life? What do I do for their life? At the moment, I'm really not sure.

I guess I have a lot of contemplating to do. For now, this is it.

Love, Emilie

Tandiey

Dreams and my new journey.

So... i've begun a journey of rediscovery. I'm finding out who I am again and how I feel about just about everything. I'm attempting to rediscover my soul an how to make that part of me happy. I've been having alot of dreams lately and one of them was very vivid. I was in Ireland. I was wearing, what came to find later was, a grey woolen cotehardie with a white shirt underneath it. I had beautiful dark copper penny colored hair, it was wavy. I was in a one room "cottage" made of grey plaster and a thatched roof. I could hear the crackling of the fire in the center of the house. There was a youngman with me. His name was Adrian. He had brown hair and brown eyes and he was 21 yrs old. I was 19 and also had brown eyes. There wasn't a whole lot more that I remember... it was just so vivid and real. I find myself wondering if it is not a dream, but a memory of a past life.

I feel awful

I know this has absolutely nothing to do with my car, but gosh I've been freaking welling up.

(Ke$ha)
I miss your soft lips. I miss your white sheets.
I miss the scratch of your un-shaved face on my cheek.
And this is so hard cause I didn't see
that you were the love of my life and it kills me.
I see your face in strangers on the street.
I still say your name when I'm talking in my sleep.
And in the limelight, I play it off fine.
But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light.
[Ah]
But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light.
[Ah]

Chorus:
They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me.
Young love murder, that is what this must be.
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone.

The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed.
Young love murder, that is what this must be.
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone.

Verse:
Remember the time we jumped the fence when
the Stones were playing and we were too broke to get in.
You held my hand and then made me cry while
I swore to God it was the best night of my life.
Or when you took me across the world, we
promised that this will last forever but now I see.

It was my past life, a beautiful time
Drunk off of nothing but each other till the sun rise.
[Ah]
Drunk off of nothing but each other till the sun rise.

Chorus:
They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me.
Young love murder, that is what this must be.
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone.

The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed.
Young love murder, that is what this must be.
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone.

Bridge:
It was a past (he was a past life) life, a beautiful time.
Drunk off of nothing but each other till the sun rise. [Till the sun rise.]

Chorus:
They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me.
Young love murder, that is what this must be.
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone.

The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed.
Young love murder, that is what this must be.
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone.

Dorian Grey... the 1991 Mitsubishi GSX

Sooo Michael had this great idea to start an online tracker for the GSX! Also probably going to use this as my online journal since I have been neglecting my normal journal for way too long. Anyways, here he is, my 1991 Mitsubishi GST-X... someone started changing him from AWD to FWD... we're gonna fix that.

Day 1

Assess the situation... these are all the pics I took before we started to doing the work.



Day 2... The day we start doing things!


We got the transmission out!!! Best of all, no one got hurt! So now I guess it's wait for some parts... among the list of things we are going to need, all 4 axles. They put in FWD axles to go along with the FWD tranny, however, since we are turning it back to AWD, we need those changed too.
Also, it's going to need various hoses and some steel braided lines, electrical wiring, minor body work, all kinds of things... Tomorrow I'm hoping to come up with a list in chronological order of parts that I need to buy. Phew... this is going to take awhile, but I'm SOOO excited to finally have a DSM again. I've been missing having one since I sold the last one. In conclusion, I don't know if I can ever be happy without one again.

One more pic for the road... Me and my car :)