What's With This?!

♪ ♫ "Ohhh ohoh, chain reaction
Spin me around, all around
Oh feels like a lifetime
(I’ve been waiting)
One domino goes down
Then they all hit the ground
(And not deliberating)
It all happens for a reason right?" ♪ ♫ ~ Ke$ha

Lately, I've been coming up with all these catchy poet things. They keep popping into my head. IDK why. I'm seriously beginning to wonder what's up with this. What's up with me?! I feel like I am changing... little by little... something is different. I can't quite put my finger on what it is. It almost scares me. No... fuck that. It DOES scare me. I don't get scared by much, but when it comes to me and change and I don't know what's going on... that's when I silently freak.

I have been dreaming a lot more than normal recently. I like it, not gonna lie. It's pretty cool. Sometimes, I just wish that I understood them better. I think there is someone I'm supposed to meet. I don't know if I've met the person yet or not, but when I figure it out... Something important is going to happen or begin to happen. I get the feeling that the world is rapidly changing. My intuitive development teacher has said some things about it too, which is only part of the reason that I feel this. It actually feels like something inside me is preparing, adapting, evolving even. I so badly want to have someone to share this feeling with. Someone who feels the same, that I can talk to or confide in, who understands the feeling that I speak of. I have a few people in my life right now that I am trying to figure out. What role do they play in my life? What do I do for their life? At the moment, I'm really not sure.

I guess I have a lot of contemplating to do. For now, this is it.

Love, Emilie

Tandiey