I have been researching all night. Trying to piece together whatever real information I can seem to find about my possible past life. My nickname "Tandy" which I have slightly changed the spelling of, originated as a surname in Ireland in the exact time period that I am pretty sure was in my dream. The lake that I was dreaming of, I'm pretty damn sure is a lake called Lough Ramor. It's just like it was in my dream, except for the bench... and sooo beautiful.
So I find myself wondering if my assumed character of Tandiey with the red hair and always wearing green, is really a representation of my former self that I have always known about and never connected until now. I really want to learn all that I can find out about the real history of the time period and the area where I am thinking that I lived. The only problem with that is that I don't want to cloud what may be real memories with things that I have now learned while researching. So for that reason I have done a lot less research on the matter than I would really like to do. I have already read one book on past life regression for the purpose of trying to find out more information that I have locked in my soul. I am thinking of other ways to possibly unlock them, like recreating similar events, clearing my mind and listening to period music, meditating on some of the common symbols of the time, or the picture of the lake. It's all so vivid in my head, the parts that I remember. It's just insane. I'm thirsting to know more. Why am I torturing myself by holding back the information subconsciously??? Only I have the answers. Only I can unlock the secrets. Just like always... I only have myself to help or blame. :-/ In the end, always, I only have myself.
On a different note, Maria, my intuitive development teacher, has suggested that I do my own spiritual guidance with Angel Cards. I am to pick 3 cards every day and think about them, connect with them, and ask my guides for help if I need to. I want to try to document them daily. Here is what today's cards are:
I can connect with all of them, but Spread Your Wings, speaks to me the most. In the further description in the book it says, "Although you may feel intimidated by the prospect of change, and by the thought of moving past your comfort zone, you're ready to fly high. Welcome new opportunities, and know that it's safe to follow your heart and dreams. Keep your focus upon love, service, and spirit, and avoid nay-sayers or skeptics. Remember that you inspire others with your story of turning challenges into victories." - Guidebook for the Archangel Oracle Cards
I had a pretty deep conversation today about changes and challenges, so it's only appropriate for this card to show up in my guidance today. To me, this is like a smack in the back of the head... Take your own advice dopey! I'm always dishing out advice for people to take, they usually come back to me telling me what good advice I have, so why is it so difficult for me to listen to myself? Who knows... oh wait me... except... yeah I don't know... Ugh. tehendkthxbai...
Love,
Emilie
Tandiey
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