Today, yeah it's Christmas. Merry Christmas. Today is supposed to be a day of happiness, peace, joy, love, and all the other awesome feelings most of these, I don't feel often. I love Rayne. Watching her open Christmas presents was awesome. That gave me some peace, joy, and happiness. She was so excited. We did a pretty small Christmas this year and I'm definitely glad. It feels better when there is less if that makes any sense at all. Speaking of having less... We finished season 2 of The Walking Dead today...
I can't help but to think that we are (in a less dramatic fashion) on our way to about the same type of life, as a collective society. I think I've mentioned it before, how I feel like I'm trying to prepare without even really knowing what I'm doing. I just have this feeling that it's coming. Something is changing, something is going to happen. It eats at me sometimes... then I forget about it for a little while and it comes right back. I feel it in the pit of my stomach. It's not like it's going to happen tomorrow, but I don't think it's all that far away. Honestly, I'm not sure if I even care. Sometimes I feel like life is better that way, the act of survival, self-sufficiency, not wasting things so much like we have grown to do as a people. I'm guilty, we all are. It's a bad habit.
Back to The Walking Dead... My two favorite characters are Daryl and Shane. Daryl is just one bad ass fucker. He has a good heart and amazing survival skills. I love his crossbow. I can identify with his character by the way he responds to his brother's negative reinforcement. Shane... Well, Shane lol. He is just awesome. I like him because he is the only one in the whole group that thinks logically... at least most of the time. It's obvious where his devotion and dedication are. He loves Lori and Carl and will do whatever it is that's right for them, even if it means leaving. His character is so complex and interesting. He is a fighter, a survivalist, he will do whatever it takes to overcome his obstacles. He definitely has the survival instinct. I like the way he tries to handle situations before Rick goes and fuggers them all up. Rick is a good hearted pussy. He wants to do right all the time, but it ends up being at the expense of innocent people and not for the survival of the mass of the group. In my opinion, Shane needs to take back the reigns as leader of the group and start making the decisions again. Rick has only made one hard decision so far.
I would very much hope that I could muster my survival instincts that I used to have when I was a child. I'm not sure that Rayne will be ready for that type of life. She will need to man up and do it quick. In addition to that, I have GOT to get a hold of something that I'm working on anyways and that is controlling my emotions. Someone has made it very clear to me that I am seriously lacking in that category. So I'm trying to take it very seriously and actually work on it. I'm not acting on impulses like I normally do. I am trying to base decisions on logic and not emotion. In reference to the last paragraph, that is a good way for me to prepare for the upcoming apocalypse also. I should try to be more like Shane. Facts are easy to see when emotions aren't clouding your judgement. So mission for now, Control my emotions, don't let them control me. That's it for now...
Love,
Emilie
Tandiey
No comments:
Post a Comment