This is my journey

Today, I am home. It is Saturday. I am fully intending to make a change in my life. Well, a few of them actually. It's going to be hard to break old habits, but I CAN do this and it is something that needs to be done. I need to be a more positive person, for myself and my daughter. I need to try to focus on good things and let the not so good ones slide more. I'm glad to have someone in my life that is on the side lines pushing me to be a better person for myself. It means more than I think they know. I have always been a strong believer in the saying, "Lead by example." Now I have to take that step and lead my daughter by example. I have to show her how to be happy, not just for me. I need to follow my heart, my higher self, my soul, whatever you want to call it. Find my path, take my journey, and be happy. Wherever that road may take me, that is where I need to go. Maybe I should stop thinking so logically and start thinking more intuitively. I have a gift, why not use it?  I need balance, logic and intuitive. Head and heart. So many terms for the same damn thing. I'm sorry for my stream of consciousness writing. It is just something that happens when I'm unloading my brain.

 I need to take these next few days and just empty. My thermometer that is always near breaking point... I need to drain the mercury out of it. Start from 0 degrees and never get past 100. Something that I really need to work on, not getting so frustrated so quickly. I have worked on it quite a bit and calmed down a lot, but it's still not enough. I've reached a low plateau on that and need to keep working on it.

Tomorrow is Reiki 2. I'm looking forward to my attunement. I am ready. I am ready to be a tool of universal light. I want the light and love of the universe to flow through me to everyone I come in contact with, because deep down, I know that I care. I care about everyone, I want to help everyone. First though, I need to help myself. THAT is my current journey, helping myself. So God, please let the universal love and light fill me and heal me from the inside out. Send your angels to help me on my path and show me the steps to take. Let me find my spiritual stepping stones and the trail to hike during my spiritual ventures. Thank you.

Love,
   Emilie

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