What's With This?!

♪ ♫ "Ohhh ohoh, chain reaction
Spin me around, all around
Oh feels like a lifetime
(I’ve been waiting)
One domino goes down
Then they all hit the ground
(And not deliberating)
It all happens for a reason right?" ♪ ♫ ~ Ke$ha

Lately, I've been coming up with all these catchy poet things. They keep popping into my head. IDK why. I'm seriously beginning to wonder what's up with this. What's up with me?! I feel like I am changing... little by little... something is different. I can't quite put my finger on what it is. It almost scares me. No... fuck that. It DOES scare me. I don't get scared by much, but when it comes to me and change and I don't know what's going on... that's when I silently freak.

I have been dreaming a lot more than normal recently. I like it, not gonna lie. It's pretty cool. Sometimes, I just wish that I understood them better. I think there is someone I'm supposed to meet. I don't know if I've met the person yet or not, but when I figure it out... Something important is going to happen or begin to happen. I get the feeling that the world is rapidly changing. My intuitive development teacher has said some things about it too, which is only part of the reason that I feel this. It actually feels like something inside me is preparing, adapting, evolving even. I so badly want to have someone to share this feeling with. Someone who feels the same, that I can talk to or confide in, who understands the feeling that I speak of. I have a few people in my life right now that I am trying to figure out. What role do they play in my life? What do I do for their life? At the moment, I'm really not sure.

I guess I have a lot of contemplating to do. For now, this is it.

Love, Emilie

Tandiey

Dreams and my new journey.

So... i've begun a journey of rediscovery. I'm finding out who I am again and how I feel about just about everything. I'm attempting to rediscover my soul an how to make that part of me happy. I've been having alot of dreams lately and one of them was very vivid. I was in Ireland. I was wearing, what came to find later was, a grey woolen cotehardie with a white shirt underneath it. I had beautiful dark copper penny colored hair, it was wavy. I was in a one room "cottage" made of grey plaster and a thatched roof. I could hear the crackling of the fire in the center of the house. There was a youngman with me. His name was Adrian. He had brown hair and brown eyes and he was 21 yrs old. I was 19 and also had brown eyes. There wasn't a whole lot more that I remember... it was just so vivid and real. I find myself wondering if it is not a dream, but a memory of a past life.